i think in like, spoken words a lot? i go back and forth between spoken words and text, sort of. it’s more like, the words accompany a weird idea that i instinctively understand? sometimes the words short out, and i can’t hear/see them, or other times there AREN’T any words for the concept (that i know) and so then it’s all…just a feeling? another thing i’ll think in is conversations with people i know (always based on my IDEAS of how other people are…not how they actually are. this is a problem for me.) when i think in spoken words, it’s always like…narration, often based off of the narration of the last thing i read/watched/listened to. it’s sort of a constant novel, varying in pov. i’ll go back and revise sentences that i just heard in my head if i think i should. if nothing else is repeating in my head, music is playing. all the time. EVERYTHING gets stuck in my head though, not just music. right after i do something, little…clips? will play over and over in my mind in no particular order; just playing in the back of my mind until something distracts me enough to replace it. sensory things (touch mostly) stick on me? so like, if you touched my arm, i’d sort of feel it for a long time afterward. a friend of mine explained it like this: “[it’s like everything has oil on it, and so it all leaves oil on you]”, which is perfect. i feel like i don’t really have a concept of present? because all i do is compare it to the past. i can’t help it. so like, a minute ago i was watching my leg as i jiggled it, and then i stopped. rather than observe “leg stopped”, the jiggling leg ‘footage’ played over in my mind to contrast the new input. does that make sense? it’s weird. sometimes there’s yelling in my head; if i think too much about people yelling it gets really loud and i get frustrated and my head hurts.
tl;dr: i think weird i guess
Well, I was tagged! So here we go~ six selfies! I taaaaag… Everyone! Have fun and pick selfies that make you feel like you could conquer the world~~
can we stop the idea that saying stuff like “i would bang you” or “damn i totally want to fuck you” or any other type of sexual advance on selfies is acceptable bc honestly it’s really gross and harassment and you have no idea how those comments make the person feel (which tbh it usually makes the person feel gross and objectified)
Can we just take a moment to remember the greatest book in the history of our childhoods…